.: Purple Lights
you really don't need to read this, guys. feel free just to close the tab/window.
so, i'm back from New South Wales, and I'm getting used to the whole my room thing. I love it.
...I'm a bit of a mess, with, well, everything. Just talking to a few people has really upset me. but i'm okay. i'm fine. sorry. i shouldn't be telling everyone this. because I make things so cryptic there's really no point. and I can't explain. No.
Things I want to say to different people RIGHT now.
1. !#$% $@#, $%^ %$#$^%& %$#, really, just don't walk away. Giving up is a strength as much as it is a weakness, though there is a fine line between the two. And I think you've coloured that fine line with a sharpie so wide that they're starting to meld together.
...but at least you're smiling.
2. You make me cry. You don't understand how selfish you really are when you do these things to me. I want to be there all the time for you; I really, really do.
3. I really want to see you. Really. I need a hug, and some cookie dough, and some reassurance that she'll come home, and we'll be alright. I need that; more than you'll probably ever know.
4. I hate that you told me to go away. I really thought it could play out like a scene from a movie; just holding you while you cry. Too bad that everything in my head never ends up how I imagine it.
/end rant. I'm sorry about this.
