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  • Listening to: silence.
okay, it's been a long, long time. i'm sorry.

there were ALOT of messages in my folder, and as such, because there were far too many, and because alot of the journal entries were very far out of date, i just deleted them altogether. to be honest, i'm not really going to make a commitment to this site like i was in the past; i don't use the internet nearly as much as i did when i was on this site so much more. and i can't really write much anymore, so i guess i don't have much to contribute.

thankyou for all the favourites, watches, llamas, etc, because this has all been fantastic.

i'm not going to delete or permanently move my account, but i feel as if i should let you know that i'm not going to make nearly as much an effort as i would normally. all the pieces i write here are here for you to read, and i'll continue to put pieces up, but be aware i rarely write anymore.

the last four to six months have been life changing. nothing bad as such has happened, but quite a few amazing things have happened. well, it's been a good year thus far, if i do say so myself. i don't really want to write down every single thing, to be honest. i just...  yeah.

and if you want me to view something, a piece of work maybe, or if you're having a current issue [ie, that you talked about in a recent or not journal] you want to talk about with me, i'm all ears.
  • Listening to: From Yesterday - 30 Seconds To Mars
  • Reading: The Boy In The Striped Pyjamas
hi all. i've spent alot of time away from deviantart [and most of the internet altogether] and for that, i am SO sorry. i'm hoping when school starts, things will hopefully go back to normal. i haven't been writing in the last few days, though i did upload some things in early january...

well, i go back to school tomorrow, and, oh my god, is this semester going to be great! my electives are music and french, and i'm starting piano, too, aswell as continuing with my singing lessons. in music, we have four guitars, a bass, drums, piano, and vocals, so, if you have any songs that could fit those guidelines, that, would be amazing. :3 [don't stress much about the plentiful guitars, though, if you do decide to help me.]

I've just read the Boy In The Striped Pyjamas, and, i was disappointed with my correct guess of the ending half way through. we're studying it this year at some point, so, it'll be interesting to see what aspects we're going to cover. and, when i watched the movie, and i couldn't even think. there are no words.

ANYWAY.

and so, all year 8s had to take a PAT test last year, for Maths. so, we're looking at general mathematics at the year eight level [kids around 13-14]. i was the only one in my entire school who got 100. can you believe that! :3 that means, that i rank at #97 in the whole country, [i'm assuming only 3-4 other people in the country got a 100.] so, i'm damn proud about that! (:

so, how was everyone's christmas and holidays and whatnot?
WELL, my deviantART premium membership expires in a few days. D':  I'm just hoping one of my friends gives me another one for my birthday. here's to hoping. :heart:

anywhoozle, for my watchers, I've decided that there are seven slots to be filled. the first seven people to comment will get three of my favourite of their works featured. don't be shy, :3

1. Christianthewriter a lovely writer, who [wears cute panda hats and] puts emotion into everything he writes. (:
Panda Hat Screen Roll by Christianthewriter
I Believe In LoveI Believe
I Remember When I First Met You,
My Life Seemed So Dark,
So Broken By Those Before You.
My Face Stained By My Tears,
With Scars Deep.
I Remember The Night You Saved Me.
The Path Of Darkness And Night,
I Was All Alone,
Calling For Anyone To Hear My Tears.
I Was On The Edge Of My Life.
Sick Of My Past,
Sick Of Getting Hurt,
Sick Of Living.
Until I Heard Your Call.
You Gave Me Hope
You Gave Me This Feeling,
That I Never Knew.
It Showed Me This Path,
A Path To The Light,
The Path To You.
You Saved Me On That Night.
Days Past,
So Did Those Months,
Our Friendship Grew,
Very Slow
But Stronger Than Anything
But I Slowly Grew Worse.
You Took The Hardest Task In The World.
The Task To heal A Broken Child's Heart.
I Remember When I Fell In Love With You,
It Seems So Long Ago now.
But It's As Bright As Thousand Suns.
And Always Brings A Smile To My Face.
I Remember Our First Kiss.
The Spell That Broke My Cursed Heart.
You Gave Me The Hope To Live.
You Made Me Believe Again.
But I Remembe

You're The Only Exception
You're the only exception
I thought love was just a word,
That people used to hide a lie.
Love never treated me fair, or right.
It just gave me sorrow
Then I promised to myself,
I'll never fall in love.
Never to get hurt,
Never to give my heart,
Never to give my soul away.
I fell deeper and deeper,
Pushing everyone away.
Cutting my soul, to relieve my pain.
My loneliness slowly built,
Until it over came me.
Then I met you.
You were just a name and face at first.
A cute pretty girl as it were,
That talks like we were the best of friends.
First movies then the park.
Then the first kiss
And a song to seal the day in our hearts.
As soon as you kissed me,
My heart came alive again.
Scars faded blood stains wash away.
And love came true,
Cause you're my only exception.


2. xSammyKayx multi talented, and gorgeous. (: Sammy has some amazing drawings, and her imagination is just, wow.  
Ravyn_Beauty2 by xSammyKayx
Letters i shall never give.To a friend whose face is unknown,
Thankyou for cheering me up. You make me smile - something that is so simple and yet rare in the past months. Keep your smile on your face - it never should leave. One day I shall help you find your wings - I'm sure you've lost them somewhere.
To a friend whose voice is unheard,
You inspire me to do a thousand things - things that I may or may not have done before, and things I gave up a long time ago. Somehow, you remind me of someone I once held close. One day I shall hear your voice.
To a friend whose touch is like electricity,
You make me hot and cold. You drive me insane [but in a good way]. I wish I saw you more often, even though most days are accompanied with your touch. Your smile. Your everything. My everything.  <3
To a friend who moved away,
I miss you more everyday and I cherish those rare late night conversations. We have to catch up soon, or I swear I'll go crazy. You've made me hold onto my sanity more than once. You've ma

Dark Abyss.'Smile, even if the world is crashing around you.'
Weakness means failure; never fail.
Keep up the appearance that everything's okay.
Put on more masks; play happy families.
Outside and alone; don't ask for help.
Cracks growing on the mirror; just wait for it to shatter.
Scared.
Lonely.
Darkness.
Drowning.

I'm smiling.


3. RACHiiBABii my gorgeous best friend, an amazing photographer, and intermediate doller.
this is a rare specimen by RACHiiBABii
The Garden Walk by RACHiiBABii
Don't Leave Me.. by RACHiiBABii

4. doofilein a lovely digital artist, slight fangirl and wonderful animator.
Everything will be alright by doofilein
.:4 Dark by doofilein
Katzii by doofilein

5. nevergoneforever a gorgeous writer, with intricate detailing in and around all of her pieces.
:thumb171117993:
:thumb176812272:
:thumb179556355:

6. toDanceintheRain quite a brilliant artist, with some gorgeous writings still hidden away in her gallery.
:thumb182589761: todanceintherain.deviantart.co…
:thumb182584674: todanceintherain.deviantart.co…
:thumb183009582: todanceintherain.deviantart.co…


7.

scared.

Sat Nov 20, 2010, 1:46 AM

.: Purple Lights




after nearly a year, of wanting i've decided that,
no matter how much i want it,
i don't want it
right now.

and it's tearing me apart,

because i don't love him.
i don't
even know
if
i like him,

like that.



and there's this mind-numbing fear, of how much i'm going to break his heart
when i tell him this.

A Second Glance

Sat Nov 13, 2010, 4:42 PM
  • Listening to: SKYWAY!
  • Reading: The Crucifix Killer. AMAZING.

.: Purple Lights





This is for you (this is for you).
You're the one worth waiting for.
You're all I ever needed in this life.

Let's take a look back, so we can see,
What it took to bring us here and we're
So reminded of better days,
When we were both happy.

This is for you (this is for you).
You're the one worth waiting for.
You're all I ever needed in this life.

This is for you (this is for you).
You're the one worth waiting for.
You're all I ever needed in this life.

Words can't express,
the impact you've made on me,
And -- in my entire life.
And all I can say is that I love you,
For everything it turned out to be.

This is for you (this is for you).
You're the one worth waiting for.
You're all I ever needed in this life.

This is for you (this is for you).
You're the one worth waiting for.
You're all I ever needed in this life.

Cause I try,
So hard to make this right (right).

You've got my back on the wall.

After all you've put me through,
My friends still stay true.

After all you've put me through,
My friends still stay true.

Your reign is over,
Why couldn't you prove me wrong?

Your reign is over,
Why couldn't you prove me wrong?

A second Glance by A Day To Remember.

LOOK.IT.UP.

anywhoozle, i'm actually quite very proud of the thing i uploaded last night. :3  my writing's getting so much better, as it gets closer to the heart. :heart:  wow, my life is just amazing right now. i'm getting a book in a few days called Disquiet, by Julia Leigh. it's a short novella, but oh God, is it amazing.

i bought Black Ops, if anyone's interested, you can add me on psn, with the same username as here, just let me know. :3 i'm already organizing things for my birthday party! yay! :D it might just be amazing; oh wait, it definitely will be. i'm just hoping my besh frann james can come, as long as his parents don't go all tight on him. :/  but i'll be looking forward to it, nonetheless. wow, time flies fast! :)

this week has really taken it's toll on, well, everyone. we've all been suffering from lack of sleep, and bitchiness and whatnot. it's getting ridiculous, i have to say; but there's not much we can do about it.

harry potter and the deathly hallows comes out this thursday, and i'm hoping to see it during the day with friends. yay! more friends! :D

so much to do, and so little time! i should go and kill things [virtually, of course], and do something constructive today. goodbye! ^_^

ah, yes.

Wed Nov 10, 2010, 2:23 AM
  • Listening to: Mayday Parade
  • Reading: The Crucifix Killer. AMAZING.

.: Purple Lights




"Three Cheers For Five Years"

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me, baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now

Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight

How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

Three Cheers For Five Years by Mayday Parade.

ahh, that is an amazing song.


AND GUESS WHAT! MY MESSAGES IS NOW [0]! I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED! :D


and here's a feature, because i have a little spare time. :D

:thumb185621980::thumb185591317::thumb185568175::thumb185603771: ..: Beautiful forever :.. by Mademoiselle-P The Night And The Silent Water by IrondoomDesign

they're all so pretty. :D

WELL!

Sun Oct 24, 2010, 1:21 PM

.: Purple Lights




I think I've mentioned this, but I'm actually going on a school camp for 3 days.

So, I'll get back to you all when I return, all tired and like, half dead. x]    

Have a nice 3 days while I'm gone, and hopefully I'll have something to upload when I get back. XD

:heart:

and we are falling

Thu Oct 21, 2010, 2:30 AM

.: Purple Lights




so I'd like you all to read these lyrics and tell me if they're any good. :3


startsong/
I have done some things that I'm not all too proud of,
I can't seem to find the right way.

    all we are is but a dream within a dream. all we ever were is a song for us to sing


now four hundred miles from home I'm singing all alone
with only memories keeping me here.

    all we are is but a dream within a dream. all we ever were is a song for us to sing


here we are here tonight. you're glowing just so bright.
don't tell me you're sorry, cause I know that I'm not.

    all we are is but a dream within a dream. all we ever were is a song for us to sing


and we are falling.

and we
are
falling.

/endsong

so, what are we thinking? any criticisms? compliments? do keep in mind, it does fit perfectly with the music. XD

and (c) Elizabeth O'Brien, btw. >.>  [just a precaution XD]

well, I *might* do it for this talent show thing at my school camp coming up next week. this'll be awesome. XD

shanks much, and I hope you're all doing well. ^_^

my message box

Thu Oct 14, 2010, 1:37 PM

.: Purple Lights




[my message box] IS EMPTY.

IT"S A MIRACLE!   

yeah, so i took the time to actually reply to all those comments [ah, how polls kill your inbox] and now I'm feeling rather accomplished. :D  

I did put something up last night, and I have a good feeling that I can write more now.  I'm going for NaNoWriMo this year. oh yeah. :D  looking forward to it, and I already have an opening line. :D:D:D   

so, I shall talk to you all later. :D   I have school to go to now.  >.>

Devious Journal Entry

Mon Oct 11, 2010, 1:56 AM

.: Purple Lights




okay, i'm full out on hw. i have to create my own superhero by wednesday. so I just thought I'd procrastinate, and do this: :D


What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[x] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of bottom half are you wearing?
[ ] Shorts = cutie
[ ] Skirt/skort = skank
[ ] Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ] Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ] Ripped jeans = emo
[ ] Cammo = cage fighter
[ ] Jeans = prep
[ ] Cargo = clown
[ ] Sweats = athlete
[ ] Boxers = brat
[ ] Booty shorts = female
[ ] Capris = Gangster
[ ] Nothing = hoe
[ ] Dickies = weirdo
[ ] Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[ ] Skinny jeans = beast
[x] Other = sex addict


What is your natural hair color?
[ ] Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ] Blonde = with a broken heart
[ ] Black = with a sexy smile
[ ] Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] Red = that likes to have fun
[ ] Brown = who loves to be different
[x] Dirty blonde= with sexy eyes
[ ] Bald = with herpes
[ ] Other = with a nice ass

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ] 1 = who ate
[ ] 2 = who needed
[ ] 3 = who killed
[ ] 4 = who shot
[ ] 5 = who killed
[ ] 6 = who smoked with
[ ] 7 = who farted on
[ ] 8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ] 9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ] 10 = who cuddled with
[x] 11 = who slept with
[ ] 12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ] 01 = the kool-aid man
[ ] 02 = a dog
[ ] 03 = a shoe
[ ] 04 = a toothbrush
[ ] 05 = Santa Claus
[ ] 06 = The Trojan man
[ ] 07 = Barney the dinosaur
[ ] 08 = a prostitute
[ ] 09 = a bag of weed
[ ] 10 = a porn star
[ ] 11 = a lover
[ ] 12 = a glass of milk
[ ] 13 = a horse
[ ] 14 = a jew
[ ] 15 = a stripper
[ ] 16 = a pickle
[ ] 17 = a lesbian
[ ] 18 = a homo
[ ] 19 = an orange
[ ] 20 = a dildo
[ ] 21 = a homeless guy
[ ] 22 = a whore
[ ] 23 = my crush
[ ] 24 = an easter egg
[ ] 25 = a jar of honey
[ ] 26 = a condom
[ ] 27 = a bowl of cereal
[x] 28 = a french fry
[ ] 29 = Micheal Jackson
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ] 31 = YOUR MOM

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[ ] Black = because I'm sexy as hell
[ ] Pink = because the voices told me to
[ ] Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ] Red = because I'm a pimp and your jealous
[ ] Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ] Purple = because I'm gay
[x] Gray = because I got dared
[ ] Other = because that's how I roll
[ ] Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ] Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ] Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ] Brown = because I had to
[ ] Shirtless = because I've got abs

"freaky sex addict with sexy eyes who slept with a french fry because I got dared."  O.o  


...okay. was not expecting that.  now back to work I go. ^^

Devious Journal Entry

Fri Oct 1, 2010, 5:58 AM

.: Purple Lights




you really don't need to read this, guys. feel free just to close the tab/window. :)













so, i'm back from New South Wales, and I'm getting used to the whole my room thing. I love it. :D:D   

...I'm a bit of a mess, with, well, everything. Just talking to a few people has really upset me. but i'm okay. i'm fine. sorry. i shouldn't be telling everyone this. because I make things so cryptic there's really no point. and I can't explain. No.

Things I want to say to different people RIGHT now.

1. !#$% $@#, $%^ %$#$^%& %$#, really, just don't walk away. Giving up is a strength as much as it is a weakness, though there is a fine line between the two. And I think you've coloured that fine line with a sharpie so wide that they're starting to meld together.



...but at least you're smiling.

2. You make me cry. You don't understand how selfish you really are when you do these things to me. I want to be there all the time for you; I really, really do.

3. I really want to see you. Really. I need a hug, and some cookie dough, and some reassurance that she'll come home, and we'll be alright. I need that; more than you'll probably ever know.

4. I hate that you told me to go away. I really thought it could play out like a scene from a movie;  just holding you while you cry. Too bad that everything in my head never ends up how I imagine it.



/end rant. I'm sorry about this.

And another thought...

Sun Sep 26, 2010, 3:17 AM

.: Purple Lights




hey guys, I probably should have mentioned that I'm actually being dragged to Sydney for a few days (well, actually, almost a WEEK) . So, I'll come on every chance I get, but I can't promise anything.  Anywhoozle, I'll talk to you all when I get back, if I don't have a tonne of homework to do. Enjoy!



And I have a new phone! Yay!  So I get unlimited access to Facebook, and probably some other things. Yay!   That makes it perfect for traveling! :D


and maybe, maybe I'll write some things and put them up for you. ;P


Toodloo!

Oh! And btw, has it ever occurred to anyone else that since the plural of octopus is octopi, and of platypus is platypi, shouldn't the plural of status be stati? Think about it. ;D

  • Listening to: Mr Highway's Thinking About The End
  • Reading: Facebook stat*i* ;D
  • Watching: Timmy time
  • Playing: With my new phone. ;D
  • Eating: This weird lindt cake thing.
  • Drinking: Water.

Oh my...

Mon Sep 20, 2010, 6:37 PM

.: Purple Lights




it's only 10 in the morning. it feels like it's been all day. or maybe that's just what i want it to be like. well, the school holidays are fantastic, and so far I've been on a movie rally with Darcy, and been to a best friends BD party. that was very fun indeed. :]   I'm currently setting up a book to keep completed songs in, and i'm really having a go at songwriting. I can't actually play guitar, but I can play the songs I write, if that makes sense.. and yeah. so I'm proud of myself, and it makes me happy. so, yanno. :D

i'm sorry. i haven't been writing, well, at all, so i'm sorry. yeah, i haven't been able to get anything down. and because of that i've missed two writing competitions. :[   not good.  and i am not going to miss this third one, since I have til november, and i'm pretty sure i have a start. :] though, depending on who reads it, it may hit where it hurts. good thing I'll only be showing the judges. ;D  

I've been terrible and have a tonne of comments I haven't replied to yet.

anywhoozle, what's new in your world? how is your education/job going? have any ideas for a poll? what band are you really raving about at the moment??

  • Listening to: Save Your Heart - Mayday Parade

i'm eligible for two houses. yikes.

Sun Sep 12, 2010, 2:58 AM

.: Purple Lights






this fails. x] i'm still doing it, though.

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done illegal drugs
[x] You have a lot of friends
[x] You get along with everyone mostly
[ ] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months
[ ] You love soccer
[ ] You love baseball
[x] You're into writing and art
[ ] Favourite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty"
[ ] Abortion is wrong
[ ] The war against Iraq is unneeded
[x] One of your favourite colours is red or gold
[x] Good grades at school
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x] You plan on going to college/university
TOTAL: 8

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[ ] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing
[x] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[x] You're completely straight-edge.
[x] You're very emotional
[ ] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[ ] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[x] You've made fun of at least one person this week.
TOTAL: 7

RAVENCLAW:
[ ] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[ ] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[ ] Sports suck.
[ ] You're shy.
[ ] Hate is completely unneeded.
[ ] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[ ] Indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[x] Red is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] Serious is better than funny.
TOTAL: 4

SLYTHERIN:
[x] There's at least one person you hate.
[ ] Basketball is a good sport.
[ ] (American) Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You've lied about something serious.
[x] You're a very deep person.
[ ] You have considered suicide.
[x] Very loyal.
[x] You like metal.
[ ] They make school seem more important than it is.
[ ] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] You've done drugs in the past month.
[x] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[ ] You have trust issues.
[x] Guilty until proven innocent.
TOTAL: 8

TWO HOUSES. asdgjhomg.

----------------------------------------------------------

anywhoozle, i stayed at my most AHHHHMAZING friend Rachel's house yesterday. the most fun i've had at any kind of sleepover in, well, forever. ;] i'll put a few brilliant pictures up, because we're just awesome like that. :]  i went to see salt on friday, it's a very silly movie, but it wasn't bad. i spent today helping my aunty move houses, and she insisted on paying me, so i ended up with $50 and a few things from her last visit to New Delhi, so i'm very happy with that. i have a sose project due this friday, which i'm meant to be doing, like, now. HAH. yeah. hooray for procrastinating. yes, and i'm songwriting a little now, so i'm very proud of myself. also, i have a distinct suspicion i was born to be a pianist.  x] oh i am proud of myself today. here's another thing:  this week is National Suicide Prevention Week, but whether it's an Australian or American thing, I really don't care. TWLOHA.com are selling a limited edition shirt, and have the most amazing idea for an online suicide hotline, which i think will be fantastic. :] i might write something sometime soon! yayayayayayyy! i'm very happy, i'm starting to get ideas, actual ideas! :D   

and yes, that sums up my entire life story as of the moment. i feel like i should start featuring people in this..     well, as of next week, i will.  :]     have a nice day/night/week etcetcetc. i hope you're all doing well. :)

  • Listening to: Get Up - Mayday Parade

made my day. :3

Sat Sep 4, 2010, 2:54 AM

.: Purple Lights




i won this contest, losingmyfaith.deviantart.com/j… run by this absolutely amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing writer: losingmyfaith thankyouuuu.  :heart:   and i won a 3 month subscription, thankyou LadyLincoln.:heart::heart:

so i thought i'd just feature some of my favourites from her gallery, y'know, since she ran the contest.  :]

Your ConstellationsI'm falling into your constellations
wishing on the crook of your neck
that you would fall in love with me.
I've been stuck in your galaxy for
so long now
I can't bear the thought of losing you.
But you're not mine to lose,
are you?
I'm wasting all my time
holding onto someone who
isn't holding onto me.
But if I had a choice
I'd rather live in the dark with you
than try to forget what it feels like to be
wrapped in your arms.
The Right Decisions--Part OneIt didn't take long for the ring of my cell phone to wake me. I opened my eyes, dragging my eyelids open as I tried to awaken. Brian had his arm around my waist, sleeping gently. I grabbed the phone off of his nightstand, the summer breeze fluttering through the open window and tickling my cheek. "Hello?" I whispered groggily.
"Bailey," Chris said. "You need to get over here."
I groaned softly. What had happened now? "Damn it, Chris—"
"You know I wouldn't call you unless it was important. He's drinking again. A lot. I've tried to stop him, nothing's working."
"And you think I can?"
"You're the only one who can get through to him. I'm his best friend and I can't even get him to put the damn bottle down!"
I sighed. "All right. Be there in twenty."
"All right."
I hung up, taking a moment to recollect myself before I slid out of Brian's grasp. He stirred, opening his eyes slightly. "S'going on?"
"I have to go. I'll call you."
He sat up, running a hand through his hair. "Is everything
Last NightLast night you told me you loved me. You held me in your arms and looked straight into my eyes, the deepest caverns of your heart opening in front of me. Last night you told me how you want nothing more than to keep me safe and take me to a place far away from here, where there's nothing but love and acceptance. Last night you told me how you'd never felt this way before, how I was the first person you'd met that made your heartbeat quicken. Last night you cried and asked me why it was so hard for us to love each other, why people couldn't just see past gender and sexuality and see how much we loved each other.
"It shouldn't be this hard," you told me.
"I know." I held you like you held me and sang to you, my lips close to your ear. "They'll name a city after us, then later say it's all our fault."
You smiled. "We're living in a den of thieves. Rummaging for answers in the pages."
"And it's contagious."
We laughed. I remember thinking how right we felt together. We

Mature Content

When I Saw Him LastWhen I saw him last
he sang such a sweet
sorrowful song,
his lips forming melodies I could touch.
When he left I could feel the emptiness like a heartbeat
in the palms of my hands and the soles of my feet.
I could feel it like a regret I'll always carry,
a mistake I'm too weak to right.
Time passes in the blink of an eye;
before you know it everything you have could be gone
taken from you
(because everything comes to an end)
and there's only one thing you can ask
"please remember me."


because what's a better first feature than emily?  :]

--
life in general:   

yeah. things are going good. some stuff's getting a little complicated, and i've taken quite a few risks, none of which have turned out that bad. yet. sorry i can't give more detail, but the idea that certain people will find out may very well destroy me, [maybe not destroy, but screw up my life for a few weeks]. anyway, there's this project i have to do for humanities class, in which i have to research a volcanic eruption or earthquake of choice. it's gonna be funnnnnnnnnn, cause i researched plate tectonics for nearly two years. :]

yeahh.  everything here's pretty sweet, i guess. i saw the performance of Oliver! at PAHQ. it was awesome. i loved it. :D oh and for senior choir, there's a competition called the Royal South Street Competition, which is happening tomorrow, and it's gonna be pretty cool, and yeah. [wish me luck! :D ]  how have you all been going? is there anything new in your lives at the moment??

  • Listening to: Walk On Water Or Drown - Mayday Parade
  • Listening to: Mayday Parade
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you've drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

i think i might do this.  but in journals or deviations...   that is the question...
  • Listening to: Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana
  • Reading: d&amp;d: players handbook.
  • Playing: with my phone. :]
...is just so screwed up.

n o t e : I have nowhere else to post this, and I need to. don't read if you think i'm looking for sympathy. i'd go to facebook for that.

Rachel's party last weekend: sweet. lovelovelove her. <3 but i've been led to believe THE CAKE IS A LIE [because we didn't have cake]. however, there were nerf guns there, courtesy of yours truly. we all camped out the back, it was so cold. >.< oh, and i met someone. :] he plays guitar. and he has long hair.  and he's really nice and everything, so yeah. :]

and there are some things are starting to scare me. [notsomuch him] i can't say. i've been sworn to secrecy. but i'm scared and sometimes i just don't know what to do.  and i have this nightmare: i can't remember what happens or who's in it, but i wake up shaking. and i was sick on monday. and i am today. so my life's really odd lately.

i'm going to the city tomorrow, if i'm not feeling sick again.  it would suck if i was.  but i'm like, going to the tim burton exhibition, andandand minotaur andandand mind games, so i'm pretty happy.  looking forward to it. and i don't know what i'm doing on saturday. i might be going to lasertag, if i dont go see him. i don't know. i think i'll play it by ear. right now i'm waiting for some people to go on msn. arghh, the worst part of a school day.
  • Listening to: Jersey - Mayday Parade
  • Reading: d&amp;d: players handbook.
"Three Cheers For Five Years"

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me, baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now

Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight

How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
How does he feel, how does he kiss

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to
Mayday Parade

it's RACHiiBABii's birthday tomorrow, and i think it'd be awesome if you all could give her alotta love. thanks. <3



"You Had Me At Hello"

I'm missing you so much, I'll see you die tonight
Just so I can get to you before the sun will rise
I know the signs are on and I feel this too
None of that ever seems to matter when I'm holding you

And I'm wasting away, away from you
And I'm wasting away, away from you

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust
anyone again but I didn't have to

You had me at hello.

I've never seen a smile that can light the room like yours
It's simply radiant, I feel more with everyday that goes by
I watch the clock to make my timing just right

Would it be okay?
Would it be okay if I took your breath away?

And I'm wasting away, away from you.
And I'm wasting away, away from you.

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust
anyone again but I didn't have to
You had me at hello

You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)

You gave me butterflies (you are so cute)
at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
[x4]

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust
anyone again but I didn't have to
You had me at hello
You had me at hello
You had me at hello
A Day To Remember


am i a bad person?

"I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About"

And we both go down together
We'd stay there forever
Just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
And never let go

Well i'm thinking of the worst things
That i could say to you
But a promise doesn't mean a thing anymore
And this never will be right with me
And now you're trying to desperately
But i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say

And then we both go down together
We may stay there forever
I'll just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
You never let go
But i let go

I could only sing you sad songs
And you could sing along
And you could see the melody
That's been calling out your wrongs
And this never will be right with me
And now you're trying to desperately
But i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
But i never told you everything
I'm losing hope and fading dreams
And every single memory along the way

And then we both go down together
We may stay there forever
I'll just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
You never let go
But i let go

And we both go down together
And stay there forever
Just try to get up

And then we both go down together
We may stay there forever
I'll just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
You never let go
But i let go
Mayday Parade
  • Listening to: let this go paramore
  • Reading: Tomorrow, when the war began by John Marsden
i'm requesting help. i'm writing and i'm sortofmaybe looking for your idea of an original creature as per their respective titles.

so, tell me a paragraph about each of the following. i'm looking for special traits,  physical appearance and anything else about them that defines their race in any way.

vampire [twilight styles are not appreciated]

werewolf/loup-garou [again with the twilight thing.]

ghosts/poltergeists/spirits of the sort.

and anything else you can think of.

thanks.  :la:
  • Listening to: The plot to bomb the panhandle - A Day To Remember
  • Reading: Tomorrow, when the war began by John Marsden
I'm going to Warrnambool today until Monday. I have alot to do [including a contest by losingmyfaith which is finishing on the 10th] and I need to announce the results for InspireandCreate's contest. I'm just not sure if where I'm going has wi-fi. At least I get to see my uncle gerard, and his boys; haven't seen them in a while. I'm also really tired.  >.<

so, who here LOVES writing?? and can write whenever they want? and who believes in having a muse? who's muse is reliable? who thinks the idea of a muse is really really really silly? who here writes original things?

I didn't expect it to hurt this much